In Summer 2009, God revealed Himself to me in a crazy way. Ever since then, I have known that He is real and He is who He says He is. In order to understand this pivotal moment in my life, it is important for me to give you a little background about myself.
Growing up, I was the girl that would read all of the missionary biographies about healing, miracles, and an intimate relationship with Jesus and long for it, but I never thought He would ever choose me. So, I purposed to settle with being just “a good girl” and stick with what I knew (familiarity). Summer 2009 rolled around, however, and some things drastically changed in my life. I had a vision, while in Europe, of planting churches, living in community, and just loving people. The problem was, I was an extreme introvert and had lots of insecurities. Nevertheless, I decided to start living intentionally with the little that I knew. It started out slow. All I did, while in Europe, was say, “hi” to strangers and listen to their stories. I didn’t fully understand the gospel, but I knew that God loved me and I wanted others to know about this love. When I came back to the States, I went to an interactive training called Student CPX (http://www.studentcpx.org/). After that experience, my life drastically changed. Essentially, I had a beautiful encounter with God where I felt Him drawing out things in my heart that I never knew existed. It is hard to explain, but I felt that everything within me was saying, “yes” to God. As a result, my life, previously centered around myself, had taken a drastic shift and was now centered around Jesus. Along with this transition, I soon noticed that my insecurities and fears were absent when I was listening to Jesus and obeying Him. I started this blog to share testimonies while I was traveling, but have continued it because I enjoy sharing my life with you. So, here is to many more years of this wonderful thing called life and a sneak peak into mine…
confessions of an x-introvert
Courtney: I just read ll your poems and “journal entries” You are an awesome girl .Stay pressed into Jesus and watch Him work.
Lots of Love
Jim (and Jan)
It is a joy to have you in our home.’
“Along with this transition, I soon noticed that my insecurities and fears were absent when I was listening to Jesus and obeying Him.”
Such a peace…Thanks for posting Courtney, we were certainly beautifully made to live a lifestyle of exciting, overflowing, simple, genuine Love. You overflow that and your life leaks encouragement…and true peace. I love you.